A few of my family went to see a spiritualist tonight, at some random church, I don't really believe in any of that stuff, I don't know if i believe in anything much anymore. If there's a God he/she certainly has it out for us all, cancer is a thing, school shootings, rape, peodophilia, child … Continue reading Omnipotent
Finding it really hard not to speak to my girlfriend, that sentence alone doesn't sound right. I guess i can only put here what i want to say to her, she might even be reading this i don't even know. I want to talk to her about my future, I was thinking of finally applying … Continue reading Always around.
So I haven't really been eating for a few days now, I have constantly felt sick, like right at the pit of my stomach sick, like a tight knot feeling in my chest, it's honestly felt like a heart attack for days, I don't really do doctors, I just get better but this isn't going, … Continue reading Making the most of what I have left.
Im going for it today, it could go one of two ways but I can't sod idly by. I'm going to Leeds, I want to be there for my girlfriend she wasn't happy last night. I'm gonna get there early, go and find the nicest bouquet of flowers I can, because I missed valentine's day. … Continue reading My daft idea.
I'm back home with my family, it's nice to be around them while we all grieve for my nana. So my grandad is doing this all a bit old-school, his great grandparents were gypsies, though i would never ever admit to anyone i have pikey blood in me, but back to the point, his traditions … Continue reading Life. Death.
Just fucking misery, that's all I am, what am I doing with my life, I work to live, to pay the rent and it's taking its toll on my family and relationship. I've just had the biggest breakdown to my mum on the phone, she's never seen me cry, not since I was a kid, … Continue reading System fucking meltdown.
I try my best with everything, I also fuck up everything. I know people turn to drink and drugs, it's not for me, I just want everything to be how it was, but I understand. I am trying my utter best to keep what is left of my relationship, just any thread i will hold … Continue reading Positively Broken.